Friday, November 14, 2008 @ 11:08 PM

okay , everything was turned upside down again. i dont give a damn and i give up now.

yes , i know i made mistakes too , i know i am not perfect too ..OBVIOUSLY`I KNEW IT. but i can admit that i didnt treat u in this way , like how u treated me. Sometimes everything seems alright, at the beginning, everything was meaningful and i didnt feel hurt , although sometimes there was , i would endure as much as possible ,because there was protection and i felt secured. However , after so many times and it was like until now?..this kind of things keep repeating and repeating ,and i know it wont stop. everyone needs time to change , i need time too. i am not the person who nourish hatred. I AM TIRED AND SICK OF IT. all the distrust, all the past , it sucks..totally! did u ever think of my feeling?u said i am selfish, then u? did u ever spare a thought of me? did u ever respect me? u asked me y i change , y i am so horrible to u now..u think i like it? u think i like to treat u in this way? becoz i scared, i dun feel like respecting u anymore and i know i would get hurt again. i know i hav to trust u and i really do . i am juz a normal human who came from a foreign country, i need to feel secure , i need someone to protect me and give me some love as my family and my childhood friends are not around. sometimes when we were tgt, outing ,i treasure that time , i love it and it was great. anw , y u hav to angry when i was in bad mood, i am a normal human , i hav mood and emotion. cant u juz keep quite or humour me juz for awhile? it is not difficult right? not everytimes people hav to listen to u , u hav to listen to others too , u hav to respect others too. u said u need to hav ur own privacy, at that point of time,honestly i really wanted to slap u.it's u r the one who quarrel with me becoz i said i need my own privacy before and yes , i nvr & ever keep things to myself NOW. i am not complaining or wadever , becoz i know i am not perfect and sometimes i might hurt u too .but i am juz telling u abt my feeling. if u dun believe , i hav nth to say and i dun talk to u anymore.